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This retirement gig

It's one thing to dream of retirement--to have put up with the abundant irritations of a public sector career for 27 years before seeing that magical "no work AND pay" scenario appear over the horizon.

It's another thing to have retirement be only 300 days away. Then it gets kind of weird.

My supervisor told me last week that they're not going to replace me. Budget cuts are such that my remaining coworkers, who've already absorbed the job of one retiree, will also be expected to absorb mine. Part of me is saying Thank god I'm not stuck here and part of me is saying Hey! What am I, chopped liver?.

And they've started taking tasks away from me. Almost my entire brief for the next 300 days is legacy stuff--knowledge transfer, cleanup of old outstanding items, documentation of a job which no one besides me, in the history of this organization, has ever done. I'm not sorry to have tasks taken from me (Norm is welcome to them) but it's kind of unsettling. It's like, I dunno, Jenga or something. My career is imminently just a pile of blocks.

But what's even weirder and more unsettling is this realization that the price I've paid for the relatively secure retirement that lies before me was my entire adult life. I came to this organization as a temp a few weeks before the Challenger disaster, ferchrissakes, and here I still am. There is precisely one thing I can buy with that investment, and I'm buying it in 300 days.

There's no moral to this story. I made my bed, etc. And it was a pretty good deal. It's just...stranger than I anticipated.

Crossposted from Dreamwidth, where there are comment count unavailable comments.


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Mar. 5th, 2013 06:14 pm (UTC)
Sorry--this was aimed at karen_jk just below. I don't imagine that many people--especially in my line of work--feel very differently about it. It's not that it was a waste, just not terribly important. The prospect of loads of free time is really, really exiting, I have to say.

Edited at 2013-03-05 06:15 pm (UTC)
Mar. 5th, 2013 02:42 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry you are feeling like it was a waste. I'm sure you contributed a lot to your workplace with your intelligence and skill.

Perhaps publishing yr novel will help make you feel more fulfilled.

Hugs, K.
Mar. 5th, 2013 06:16 pm (UTC)

I hope you're right about the novel! Thank you.
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