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10/30 Didn't see this coming

I had lunch on Wednesday with my old and dear friend Roxanne, who was my supervisor for a short time early in the career from which I'm about to retire. One of the best memories of my working life is of sitting in Rox's office entering stuff in Lotus 1-2-3 on a non-networked Windows PC, and having her turn around and say, "Are you interested in astrology at all?"



Well, this was the 80s, and I'd been seriously studying and practicing astrology for ten years. So yes, I was interested in astrology. It was only a matter of time before Rox and I had installed Matrix Blue*Star, the premiere astrology software of the day, on her computer and were surreptitiously running charts after hours and printing them on her dot-matrix printer.

Rox has gone on to make a very nice post-retirement living as a professional astrologer. I, on the other hand, eventually fell into an atheistic logical non-spiritual materialistic Mr Spock period that, while rational, was dreary as hell and very hard to escape from. Because of logic.

So we had lunch on Wednesday, and Rox brought my horoscope, updated with current transits and progressions. Our conversation revolved around karma and past lives, and she said something that pulled a cord and made a whole bunch of beads form a clear, straight line. "This life for you is about dedication to a single thing: your spiritual growth."

Fast forward a few days and I am absolutely immersed in astrology again, because I want to understand that statement.

It's a marvelous symbolic language--even while I was working on the Enterprise, that aspect of astrology seemed legitimate to me--and I was fluent in it in my 20s and 30s. Re-acquainting myself with it has been wonderfully engrossing. You can make sentences like "Yeah, but the ruler of your twelfth is afflicted and intercepted in the sign it rules so it's not like it's ever going to have a lot to say without help from Jupiter" and the other person actually gets what you mean. It's like the most awesome secret code ever.

Nowadays you don't even need local software--all that stuff is on the web, and there's an Android app that will generate a quickie chart. I've bought a couple of books and have been reading intently for days.

This is fun, and it makes me happy, and removes the dreary sense of purposeless materialism, so it answers to a higher logic. I'm okay with that.

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cattraine
Sep. 16th, 2013 04:09 am (UTC)
I wish I knew what has me stuck in Texas. Its like an invisible force of ennui.
emeraldsedai
Sep. 16th, 2013 05:19 am (UTC)
Oh that stuck feeling. I know it all too well.

This concept--that some kind of "soul purpose" might explain the repeating pattern in my life--has been really helpful. Like, maybe it really isn't just a character flaw that I've ended up with a life more ordinary. Maybe I've been working on something on another level. I like that idea.
cattraine
Sep. 16th, 2013 07:18 am (UTC)
I think I am stuck job wise because I finally realize that I am just tired of working for other people and I am at the point where I have zero tolerance for ass kissing some petty manager to earn a basic living. I just have to get in gear and work on my books and art and learn to earn a living that way. Before I end up living under a bridge somewhere with a cat on my head like a hat.
emeraldsedai
Sep. 16th, 2013 06:26 pm (UTC)
I could never make the leap, myself--mind you, I spent my career in a world where I didn't have to. Nowadays, the "secure job" seems to be going the way of the dodo bird, and it seems like freelancing is the way of the future for all kinds of work.

I admire anyone who can self-direct enough to earn a living. I have no doubt that it's a freer, more creative life than the one I've led.
cattraine
Sep. 16th, 2013 08:02 pm (UTC)
I would rather have the security of a regular job. I was a bookseller for almost fifteen years and got 'laid off' ( right as I qualified for retirement) and now all the retail booksellers say I am overqualified (i.e. too old) or do not offer enough hours to live off of. Its really sad. I was happy with my job at the bookstore and I would love to work in another but few book stores are loyal to their employees. I mean, I would kill to work at Powell's, but competition is cutthroat for jobs there.
ravurian
Sep. 16th, 2013 09:13 am (UTC)
You know, I bet you'd make a killing on LJ and DW with personalised charts and horoscopes and forecasts and so on. Maybe you can inherit Roxanne's post-retirement mantle...
emeraldsedai
Sep. 16th, 2013 06:23 pm (UTC)
The thought has occurred.
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